Monday Muse: Childhood Memories

   When I was five years old, I remember one “very scary” time of my life.  Starting  kindergarten. It was a new school. I had to make new friends, but the thing I was going to miss most was my mom. I attended Daycare in the same building at my mom’s job.  I was always in the class across from her office. So whenever I got hurt she was always there to cradle me in her arms.
   It was my first day and everyone knew each other but me. I was considered the “new girl”. I walked into the classroom and everyone looked at me.  As I walked by to meet the teachers I could hear the girls in the “group” whispering stuff about me. “Oh my god did you see that girl, she’s so ugly” said one of them. “Lets not be friends with her” said another. 
There were these two girls in a different group. One looked just like me but with straight hair and the other, dark skin with straight black hair in two little ponytails. I walked with my mom, up to the teacher. I sensed all eyes in my direction. 
   When my mom left I cried. This went on for 3 months, September, October, and November. Everyday I cried for minutes or for hours. I can remember what was going on in my head those 3 months. Why am I here? Where is mom? I don’t like it here. Where am I? I have no friends. Can I go home? My mom and my teacher tried different strategies to help me not cry.  They let me take my favorite stuff animal but that still did not work.  I overheard my mom saying that she would change my school if I did not try and continued crying.
   One day when my mom left the two girls that were not in the “group” took me to their table. They told me it would fine. “Really?” I asked and they said “yeah.” Ever since that day the three of us were B.F.F.s. My friends and I were in the “gifted program” so we were together from kindergarten to 5th grade.  We were inseparable.
   When writing this story...looking back at it...I realized that I didn’t need my mom to be there I had plenty of friends. I had to suck it up and deal that me and my mom would be separated for almost 6 hours. Girlfriends and Guy friends, I still keep in touch with all my friends today. I call them on the weekends or whenever I have spare time.

Evermore

   After a horrible accident claims the lives of her family, sixteen-year-old Ever Bloom can see people's auras, hear their thoughts, and know someone's entire life story by touching them. Going out of her way to avoid human contact to suppress her abilities, she has been branded a freak at her new high school — but everything changes when she meets Damen Auguste. 

   Damen is gorgeous, exotic and wealthy. He's the only one who can silence the noise and random energy in her head - wielding a magic so intense, it's as though he can peer straight into her soul. As Ever is drawn deeper into his enticing world of secrets and mystery, she's left with more questions than answers. And she has no idea just who he really is - or what he is. I feel the theme of this book is don't judge someone on how they dress, or what they do.

   For example Evers best friend, Haven, starts to dress differently after meeting Drina, a very old friend of Damen. On page 119 it says "when I get to the lunch table I try not to gawk but Haven's hair is purple.....'right after i hung up with you last night i triend to die it red, you know, that gorgeous coppery shade like Drina's?" This shows that Haven is  trying to dress just like Drina. Another example of her dress just like Drina is on page 133 Haven says "you guys don't even know her.....then Miles yells 'its not true'.....then Haven says 'she likes me just the way I am'........(miles)Oh, is that why you changed your entire look, because she accepts you for who you really are?" This quote shows that Miles, gay best friend of Haven and Ever, is judging on how Haven dresses, buts its her choice to dress the way she wants to.
   Ever judges Damen for trying save Havens life. On page 179 it states "Damen on the floor, his clothes torn, his face dripping with blood, while Haven thrashes and moans under him......what have you done to her? seeing her pale skin, her eyes rolling back, and knowing theres no time to waste." Later in the books ,not to spoil it, Ever thinks Damen is a vampire but all he is trying to do save her life. Drina insist that Haven gets a tattoo of Ouroboros. The tattoo gets infected and Damen tries to save her life but Ever sees something different.
   This book taught me that me that i shouldnt judge a person on how they dress or the way they act, I need to get to know the person in order to judge them.